grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ROAR. \\\:

1. on friday's chinese lesson, teacher mentioned someone who failed the chinese test with like 20+/100. seriously, (don't say its not me) it's me. no one's chinese is as atrocious as mine. i must be the worst chinese Singaporean in history.

2. results, tests. why didn't i study harder for chemistry? ): sigh.

3. en bloc. WHY, WHY ARE THEY PLUCKING ME OUT OF MY HOUSE, MY HOME SINCE I POPPED OUT INTO THE WORLD?
WHERE WILL I MOVE TO?

like a carrot plucked from his garden. \:


reallyyyyyyyyy....................... life's changed so much................. and it's still changing.
sigh i don't know whats happening to me now. i used to study at least a little you know. but test results are really disappointing, i was really disappointed for my Chem. and really sad about Chinese.
don't feel like studying. \: but my grades are slipping into the long-kang.
and thats very worrying ):

Eduplus isn't helping my Chinese so rightfully i should stop wasting precious time on Thursdays and go join somewhere else that helps more right?
but i don't want to. i love Eduplus. i love the people there ):








went to say "hello!" to grandad just now, hope he's having a good time celebrating his birthday in heaven [:
family lunch, with relatives and all. haha its really fun when we get talking, cus everyone starts telling stories. but i wish there were more kids/teenagers at the very least so i can play with them. all the relatives are adults \:
i looked at my grandma, and imagined not seeing her after a while (like when she passes away). then how? i imagined that and i felt sad. like i want to spend more time with her, but its a bit hard. considering she stays at the other end of Singapore far away from me, the lack of time, the fact that its hard to talk to her cus erm, my Cantonese language content is near 0% ? her Canto is my English, my Canto is her English (okay actually her English still beats my Canto hands down. \: ) anddd i don't know how to talk to old people. i don't understand people who have really close relationships with their grandparents. how do you relate to them?? your grandparents (well mine at least) still treat you like little little kiddies, but we all know we aren't. but they fuss all the same. it's just weird you can't talk to them. \:

i wonder how it'd be like if my grandfather was still around.